Today I was asked by my husband why I’m sad. I don’t have any reason to be but I’m flailing. I’m literally drowning in my tears right now. It’s been a while since that’s happened to me. So, to help myself get some stability, here’s what I’m doing:
- trying to eat better or more. I’m terrible with my blood sugar when I falter. Trying to stabilize.
- I got out and moved today. I walked 11.2 miles. I’m working on getting back to running but right now, I need something gentler.
- I’m trying to take better care of myself. More CBD, more vitamins, more healthy food, more water. Also, more herbal tea.
- Trying to talk it through. Acknowledging “I am sad” and “I am depressed and crying” help. Seeking help… helps.
- Trying to sleep more. This may seem antithetical but while depression causes staying in bed more, it doesn’t necessarily yield more sleep. I’m trying to get better sleep more often.
- I’m trying to stay away from certain medications. Medication is important for clinical depression. I won’t ever say otherwise. I’m just saying I’ve noticed certain responses from certain medications for myself and since I want to live, I’m staying away from some. That’s just me.
- Herbal tea: chamomile and lemon balm.
- Taking time off when I need it.
I’ve got nothing else. I’m giving what I can to those who need me and taking support from those who give it. The two don’t always crossover but that doesn’t mean any one is less important. Humanity is giving and receiving. No one ever said you should expect to get both from any one person.