Ok, a friend asked what do I do for two hours of running and I told her music and work shit out in my mind. I also have loads of random thoughts, so here are some of them:
- Hard Time by Seinabo Sey: this is currently my jam. It’s the theme song for the show, Good Behavior, and while that’s a good show, this is a great song on its own.
- Having Canadian geese around is interesting. They’re kind of jerks and running through areas where they forage is like running through the poop of 1,000 stray cats. I also worry about when they fly over because of said poop. I really don’t want one of those bombs dropping on me.
- My peaceful nature has been tested quite a bit lately. I’m a bit tired of being the target of subtle negs and some not so subtle insults from some people and never shooting back. Look, if you aren’t a 10 and you’ve got some physical imperfections you’d prefer people wouldn’t mock, then don’t fucking mock me, even jokingly. If your words aren’t kind, keep them to yourself.
- Kind of on that note, I’ve been feeling a little lost. It’s hard when you look around and feel like you can’t trust anyone. When you’ve been blatantly lied to or have had confidences twisted and used to try to hurt you, the feeling of isolation can be quite overwhelming. However, I’m grateful for meditation to keep me feeling grounded despite the mental turmoil.
- Women runners are way more hardcore than dude runners. When guys have to run while bleeding with the fatigue, back, breast, and uterine pain it entails, then they can talk to us about being hardcore.
- It takes me about 3 miles to really loosen up these days. 1-3 are generally harder for me to get through than anything after that. Once the aches and pains calm down and the mind submits to the task ahead, I can do just about anything after because all there is then is one foot in front of another.
- I am 24 days into a 37 day streak. It’s the longest I’ve ever made it in a streak attempt. I’m determined to finish because I am truly testing my mental mettle these days. I want to be sharp and well prepared for the days ahead.
- I’m reading a good bit these days but considering changing my focus to some more historical perspectives.
- I am having a hard time finding balance with eating as I pick up the mileage. I am not accustomed to needing to eat so much in a day so I find myself starving at night. Working on it and I’ve found starting each day with a bowl of oatmeal makes for the perfect running fuel.
- I’m getting really excited for this year’s travels…and next year’s…and the year after that. There’s so much of the world to see!
So, these are just some random musings in the mind of a runner.