I’ve been working on my second post about some things that surfaced for me during Hurricane Ida but honestly, I’ve been having a hard time making it a cohesive post. Partially because there are things I feel I need to hold back, and I’m never good at that, but I’m trying to have healthy boundaries and respect other’s boundaries, and that’s not the most natural thing for me. Also because I’m still processing a lot of the feelings I’m having, they don’t really fit on the page properly. At least not to my satisfaction yet.
So, that’s where I’m at. I’m having big feelings about lots of things, I’m working through new structures and patterns in my life, and I’m still recovering from this massive storm.
Last night, I found roof damage that resulted in flooring damage so now I have to prepare to file a claim with insurance, get a blue tarp put on my roof, and wait for a good contractor to have time to get to me… all while hoping we don’t get another big storm. On top of all that, I still have all the yard cleanup to do while fighting hoards of hungry mosquitoes.
It’s a lot right now. So, my post that I’m working on about all these big emotions and feelings is going to have to wait, or come together organically. I realize that where I am is not where everyone else in my life is and I’m not willing to assign intentions or feelings to anyone else’s actions, so I’m just going to sit with my own and see what happens.
Cryptic enough? It isn’t meant to be. It’s just the jumble that are my thoughts. Work on my two books has ground to a grinding halt as I work through this post-storm stuff… while I try not to engage myself in any metaphorical storms as well.
So, it’s still meditation and feeling it all and cutting back drinking. On the latter front, I’m kinda kicking ass, so I will at least enjoy that victory. The rest will come organically.